i remember when the biggest decision i had to make was if i'd finish my homework before or after cheerleading.
i remember when i feared what people would think about my outfit.
there was a time when i had to make choices between what to do on Friday nights.
i didn't worry about money - my parents gave me what i needed.
i didn't worry about big decisions - my parents helped me work thru them.
i didn't even realize how good i had it.
i'm so blessed.
i don't want anyone to think that i think differently.
i have a beautiful family.
my kids are truly incredible.
and looking back, i'm so glad that we fought thru it ... and we are winning.
decisions get bigger.
we grow older.
consequences are different.
i'm not worried about what my social calendar holds -- i'm worried who my kids will be friends with.
we are facing a decision that i wasn't prepared to make just yet.
the kids go to a school that i love.
my parents were instrumental in starting it.
it was formed in my parent's basement.
i scrubbed toilets there before it was ever open.
i graduated from there.
Tommy taught there.
my life.
but it's 23 miles from our house -- and we are in traffic both ways -- everytime.
somedays, my kids could spend up to 1.5 hours in the car JUST travelling to school.
it's bound to get worse with middle school sports ---
we are making the hard decision to possibly start them in our local school next year.
i'm at peace with the possibility. - but the emotional part of leaving the 'safe' place is hard.
people know me there.
people know my family.
people know (and love) my kids.
but, family life is first for Tommy and me.
and we know that we need a simpler life.
we know that we need to feel a sense of community.
Roots.
Family.
Simplicity.
i need this.
i crave this.
i just pray that this is the best and right decision for the kids.
8 comments:
I can really relate to what you've shared here. It's taken me months of prayer and agony to decide it's time to quit teaching and allow the kids to go to public school next year. I'm totally excited for them and at peace with the decision because I feel like it's the right choice for our family. But that doesn't mean I don't freak out on occasion... today, for example :) Praying for you all!!!
i have ya'll on my heart. i KNOW & i KNOW that you KNOW that the decision He leads you to will be the best for them. they might not think so at first, but whatever the decision , it will be. i would love for you to talk to smk , the most powerful aspect of her testimony is what the lord did for her faith moving her out of the "safe" place into another place, the place he obviously wanted her. their safety is in HIm, i know you know that too...
love you
Thank you so much for sahring, Heather. My oldest was in Christian school from k4 throug 6th grade. When we moved back to Atlanta, the schools I would choose were either 25+ miles away or had waiting lists that we would be far to lowon.
We stepped out on faith and enrolled him in the local public school. It was not without it's trials, but I will say that Josh is a stronger Christian now for having had to work though some "real world" trials. He seems so much happier now. He sherrishes every minute he can have at Church. He tells us (literally) that leaving private school was one of the best things that we ever did for him.
I can tell you that it was not an easy decision. I pray for you and your family as you wrestle with it. I now you and Tommy will make the best decision. ... Because God will lead your hearts.
prayers for you friend. i know how big of a decision this is. but - - public school ROCKS for the Balicki's. praying that you'll never look back!
love you guys so much!
Girl....I'm so sad to hear this, but you have my support and prayers. Of course, selfishly the earthly me is thinking "move closer"!!! ROFL And it breaks my heart to think K and T may not grow up together. :-( However, from a spiritual perspective I will be praying for God to speak clearly to you and guide you in the Plan He has for your entire family.
Rebeca
Oh Heather, I know this must be an incredibly hard decision. Praying for God's guidance and peace.
xoxo
it feels like only days ago i was saying to myself how much time i had to make these bigger decisions. and now, it's here!
you probably know it's been on my heart for a couple years to homeschool...but the decision wasn't made easily. and i begin this journey with self-doubt for sure!
beth moore said once, "you can know you're in the right place when it's beyond what you can do". Praying on your behalf for God's peace to cover you and Tommy as you both move forward together. We all want the best for our children, and to show how much faith we have in the Lord who entrusted them into our care!
Love,
Angel
I love you! He will honor your obedience and He also knows the desires of your heart. Praying for this huge decision.
(on a lighter note... this time next week, we will be drinking coffee together AT.THE.BEACH!)
Little A:)
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